Before anything else, thank you for all who commented on my previous post, its really a heartwarming act. if you haven’t read it yet, please read it because its my ribbon-cutting post for the upgraded version of pink-lullaby. WARNING: a melodramatic post.

It all happened so fast. Its like i just had a post few days ago narrating our monthsary, and now i can’t really believe…WE’RE OVER. Yes, you’ve read that right. I dont want to share the whole thing here, i’d better keep it personal. But, my eyes are swollen, and my heart is aching… Things happened so fast.

I know we still love each other, and i don’t want our 7 months of being happy together to end up like this. It won’t end like this. IT ISN’T OVER. He’s the guy i’ve loved for 7 months, and he will always be. I won’t give up on him, i wont stop loving him. I would reserve a spot here in my heart..for him to stay in..forever. You’d ask, am i crying now? The answer, is no. Im confident that someday, somehow..we’ll be together. Though it hurts that we study in a same school, and same room, i will never give up on him. If it wasn’t only for barriers. I know, we will be together again. Call me crazy, but that’s what i totally believed in.

These days, im coming home late. I end up hanging out with friends, taking a walk to breathe some fresh air and eat a lot on fastfood restaurants.”Why?”, you’d say? I don’t want to come home anymore, because when im at home, i end up being alone, and being alone makes me remember my crisis. I love to laugh when i’ve got problems, it lifts up my confidence and happiness. But after the tiring day, i would still end up crying at my bed.

We’re still talking. A LOT. Maybe because we’re sitting together, but we were not like before. Makes me sad though. I just hope..we’re the same lovers i used to see in pictures. I just wished we’re the same people who loved each other…
I know, we love each other. To tell the truth, i miss his hugs and kisses. I miss the way he look at me when he has nothing to do, and the way he pinch me when he is teasing me. I miss eating with him after a tiring school day. I miss everything in him. He is my life i think. And without him, i end up like a person without a soul. I just cant accept the fact that, we dont even look at each other when we see one another at the corridor. The fact that i cant even wave him goodbye or greet him goodmorning hurts a lot. Again, “are you crying right now?”, you’d ask.The answer is no. Though my heart is totally sobbing, i know we can get through this. That’s why i can’t cry, why cry over something you know you can handle? I know…we can be together again.

Its not yet over my love..no it isnt. Ill fight, we’ll fignt. Will you give up on someone you almost offer your life to? Though i know nothing lasts forever, ..ill love him as if there is..Even if how much i was hurt by his ways to shoo me away…i’d love him more and more. Distance makes the heart grow fonder after all, right?

This is the lastest photo we got..
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